You rock!

I will be looking forward to the next up coming one, with my wacky family. It's been some time since I meet up with them. I could not make it the last time. I bet there will be loads of laughter this time! I hope that I will not be the topic (If you guys know what I mean).

Thanks for all the messages I received. Yeah~ I am older now!

Finally, I am bored of my blogskin! I like the new blog skin. I went for Cheyanne's wedding last Sat. Oh my, I love the way she planned her wedding. It's .. it's just like her. Now I do believe every wedding should have their own character. It was held in fort canning. The theme?? Garden wedding. It was my first church wedding. She had a band playing music as she make her entrance. I guess she really love Singapore. The bridesmaids were wearing the "Singaporean" style dresses. After the vows taking, it was the marching out. Guess what? The background music was " I feel good!" Then the couple danced out. What a funny couple!

During the buffet-style dinner, the maid of honour and man of honour each spoke about their relationship with the couple. The maid of honour was crying as she recalled the deep bond between her and the bride. It was so touching. After some games, the couple made their speech. Then the groom said" The vows were not enough to represent my love for you." Then he recite a poem. I dont remember the exact words but it was all about no matter how her life is screwed up, he will always be there for her. So sweet. I could never forget the way he look at her as she walk down the aisle.

To Cheyanne,
Hey girl, you are the bravest woman I have ever met. You taught me alot. About life, about language, about relationship. Like what your brother in law said, you represent your family, Singapore and yourself well with your confidence, out spoken character and beauty. I believe that you have found your well-deserved happiness. All the best in your new chapter in you life. Do keep in touch. No matter where you will be, you have my blessings.

Finally I have time to write. Or it is just an excuse. Anyway, I feel that sometimes you need the special mood for writing.

I'm back from Taiwan for 3 weeks. I miss every part of Taiwan. Can we go back again? Oh my, all the things look so sweet (especially the accessories). I bought loads of food back (1 box?). Looking back, I gain alot. The laughter, the secret tips of beauty (Now I have SK6~), the jokes of my Golden brand tour guide, the food and my loots! Now taiwan have my footsteps.

I want to go for a small trip again ( maybe to some island). I guess my wants are more than my needs. It's time for me to restraint a little. I need to set priorities right. I am working hard on my work. Finally, I think I am getting the hang of it. But for the bigger picture, I will have to make a tough decision (Let me set my thinking hat going).

Oh my... finally, I have the time to type. I have a million things that I wish to update. Well.. Where should I begin first? Let's start with work.

I hate myself being so antisocial. However, I need my sleep. The past 2 to 3 months was hell for me. I had never been so stressful in the whole of my life. Reason? My fat "son"!

His case was very challenging for my team. He will be overexcited and engaged himself in this la-la land within like minutes. Hence, it is very challenging to teach him new skills as he will forget after minutes. He had been with us for like 3 months. He had never shown any improvement. He is a slow learner. He cant link words to objects (meaning: he will not be able to learn receptively or labels). He will not persist on anything for more than 3 mintues. You have to keep his sucess rate up. I have to reinforce his good behaviour every trial (a box full of toys, bringing it wherever I go), take data, think of prompts and prepare for the next trial within like 10 seconds? To ensure his interest in the reinforcers, I need to change the toys after every 15 mintues. The whole ROUTINE will last for 3 hours

However, he is good with visual stuff, like material imitation, non verbal imitation and etc. Most of the stress came from my boss, Uncle T. He is a direct person. Things that you can heard from him? " Stop! I think I had seen enough!" "That's enough! Let's see something else." " Show me some therapy." Enough meaning the stims that the kid engaged himself in. Seriously, I can dream about that case almost every night. The last thing that I want was to have another unsuccessful clinic.

And Yes! We did it! The last clinic was a good one. We reduce the stims during the clinic by 20%. My boss didnt say anything. Wah. I never realise that his silence meant so much to me. Right now, I am preparing for 2 new cases, A1 (Ang mo boy) and A2 (Singaporean girl).

Mr B is also giving me a lot of trouble. He will flop to the floor as task avoidance. As I cant physically manoeuvre him, it break the momentum. I am still thinking of ways to engage him. Haiz.

Alright. Now back to my life. Uncle Richard had sold his business. Finally he can retired and enjoy his life. He might be coming to Singapore to visit me! Yeah! I miss aussie lifestyle. At times, I really miss the sale in Adelaide, especially my slippers. I cant find such cheap slippers in Singapore. I miss the weather. It's winter now. Take a look at Singapore's hot weather. It's killing me.

I am planning to learn yoga or aquatic aerobic to enrich my life a little. Hopefully, at the end of the year, I will have a better result slip for my life. Work hard and play hard!

I am sad.

I started her last session with a heavy heart. I dont know how to explain to Aaron (her elder brother) that I will not be seeing him again. He would always shout;" Bye, Jolene. See you on tue (or Thur)!" But there will not be another Tuesday or Thursday. I cant bring myself to say "see you again" as I know that there's no "again". As I wrote her last therapy notes, I am happy for her progress. When you always need to be on your toes, you failed to realise the progress that she had made. And mind you, she's only three years old with 4 months of therapy. She's my only kid who does not need only reinforcement or 100 precent engagement every min. She's also my only kid who will shout my name when she sees me. She's my only kid who learn things so fast. She started off with so much verbal stims. Now she graduated to request or comment with simple sentences. As I stepped out of the house for the last time, I teared. Yes, my girl! You are a great joy to teach. I still remember the first time when she saw us, she cried for 1.5 hours. I still remember that she would always cry when she sees me (Now she will cry whenever she see my supervisior). Now she can request for so many things. When she is bored, she will request to play with the puzzles or read a book.

I will always remember your Yes and No.
I will always remember your dollhouse.
I will always remember your "it's yours and it's mine".
I will always remember your byes.
I will always remember how you would cuddle me when you need a hug.
I will always remember your Yeah, I did it!
I will always remember the way you look at me when you are confused.
I will always remember the very busy spider.

Thanks for giving me the work satisfaction.
Thanks for the beautiful memories, my precious only "daughter".

1 more bad news: my son will be leaving me on 7th of May. Sob Sob.. I always thought that I will throw my letter before they leave me. But ... But things always turn out to be another way.