Today is 31st August 2005. It is a day where Malaysia celebrate her independence. It is also a day where my dearest Lao pa celebrate his Da shou. Can be called as Da shou coz he is 60 years old this year. Ha Ha...

Hm.. wondering what will he be doing at this moment? Any wishes for the coming year? Actually suddenly I realised that time really flies. Imagine a couple of years ago he was still bringing me to school. My dad is a man of few words. He would always just smile to all my friends. He never complain to me no matter howmy mother scolded or nagged at him. But lately his health is failing him. I can see that he is very tired from all the work. Haiz... That sadden me. I still remember that day at the airport, he was trying to catch his breath from climbing a flight of stairs. My heart really ached. Then he just told me to catch the plane.

Anyway, this entry will be espeacially for you, my dearest Lao Pa. Sorry that I cant be there to celebrate your special day with you. But no matter where I am, you will always be in my mind, heart and soul. I really appreciate your care and love for the past 21 years. I hope you will enjoy your day. You must wait till the day where I can take care of you. I will not let you worry about me again as your baby girl is growing up.

Oh my god... I got the postcard from Ms Lu! I was so happy. My first mail since my shift of place. It really brighten up my day. Love you lots. I certainly hope that we will win our big prize!!!!

These few days had been hell for me. As I have 4 assignments due on the week 7, I was extemely stressed and screwed up. Moreover, my groupmates are not easy people to work with. I hate Aussies! Haiz... Just yesterday, I was really on the verge of breaking down. I thought as one grows older, he or she will not cry so easily. But I think I am getting emotionally unstable. HaHa... For my group work for Play studies, I insisted them to have an outline by last wednesday and a draft by last Sunday. Our essay will be due on week 7. Hence we need to combine our work together. But it was only on Monday that I realised They had not even done the research for their part. And me? I spend nights trying to finish up my work. Everyday i slept at 3 or 4 am. All my Singaporean friends were meeting Mr Zhou (not Jay zhou! Is Zhou gong) while I was still reading my references. I am trying not to whine. But I cant help it! It is so unfair. That's not all. When I showed them my draft, they just brushed me off and they continued to whine about their other assignments, boyfriends and work. They ignored me totally and never even bothered to do what they had not done. Pissed off! They are going to take up my weekends to compensate what they had not done. Though I dont mind meeting on weekends, I do mind if I am making up for their mistakes. I have not started with my psychology essay because of them. Agnes should know. We cant do a last minute work for psychology essay. I had chosen the topic on Social and emotional development on human development.

Argh.... Feel like murdering someone! Oh ya, nowadays the weather in Adelaide is not good. The spring is coming but the wind is too strong. *now heads off to do my assignment*

Yesterday night i went to a play by Overseas Christian Foundation (OCF) named Forgein Exchange Ace of hearts. The reason why I went there is because Carter's housemates were acting in the play. My housemates are all christians. Hence I was being dragged there. I did enjoy the play. The play was about a guy who dreamt of having cars, woman and money. Hence he took part in a car race. From there he was being recruited into a gang. He began to do drug dealing. When he finally realised that the life he is leading was not what he want, he wanted to be out of the gang. But it was too late. The boss decided to finish him off. His sister overheard their plan. In order to save his brother, she died. At the end of the play, as usual, there's a message session. Haiz... super boring... And i hate it.

Anyway, after that I went to meet Huiya(my old Housemate). So happy to see her again. Feel so at ease again. I mean she is the one who truly understand how I will feel here. Oh ya.. she is applying for her PR. She will be staying here to suck back her school fees. Ha ha... According to her, her pay will be $60k per year. That's alot. Haiz... Money is so tempting. Whenever we go out, she would ask me if I would stay here. I would always say no. But the thought of the money i will be earning is always a plus factor. haha... but i really had a great time catching up with her. All the best to her, man!

Hey hey... I am left with 2 weeks to complete 4 assignments. I really hate to work with Aussies. They are Lazy bums! Firstly, they do not use MSN or any other type of chatting. This makes it hard to discuss assignment online. You must be wondering if that is so, just call them or meet them during school hours or weekends? but everyone is having different timetable which makes it hard to meet everyone. During weekends, it is offical off days for all... none of the Aussies are willing to meet. Calling them will cost a bomb. There's a connection fee per call you make. You also need to apply to call from home to mobile phone. Haiz...

Secondly, they like to do last min work.Giving you shit work whenever at that kind of hour. Haiz... Sick of working with people here. Maybe you have to experience it and you will understand. The worst feeling is to work with mature age students. They are so bossy and narrow in their thinking. They will not listen to your opinion. Although i respect them, i dont like their way of working.

Now back to my darling. Haiz... I was so pissed off by Mee pok (My friend's so called boyfriend). He is an idoit! Yun started her university life this week. She is studying Business (Property), majoring in Marketing(I think so!) Hence she began to feel the stress of studying . She just wish to have more time to relax and most of all is with the one whom she loves. But Mee Pok refuse as he wanted to watch soccer and go clubbing. When i was still in Singapore, i would always accompany her to orchard and all. Now that I am no longer in Singapore. She lost her company. I think that is the reason why she is so relying on Mee Pok. But at times i cant stand the fact that my friend is hurting. She called me last night at 2 am and she was crying. Now I just wish that she can concentrate on what she need to do so that she will not give up and waste her money.

It is my 3rd time that I visit Barvossa Valley. This time is for the food and wine. I bet everyone will be wondering why i go there for like a millon times. The whole valley is as big as half of Singapore... so everytime i will be going to different wineries.. Moreover, It was the food and wine Festival. I really envy the locals. They were dancing, drinking and merrying... everywhere i go is full of Life. How nice would that be if my hometown is as warm as they are!

There were 3 suprises during my trip.

• I saw Kangaroo! A baby one. i even carried it in my arms. It was so lovely. It would be nice if it can be free hopping around... so carefree... But do you know that there are actually kangaroo meat sold in the markets? That was how much the kangaroo population is! According to Huiya, the population of kangaroo is as much as the population of Singapore. Hence, it was wise to eat kangaroo meat. i even bear to try. I'm sorry!

• Was that called mei hua trees? or is that called the Yin Hua? Hee... hee... but i can tell you it was lovely. There was a whole row of trees along the road. How i wish it is spring where i can see all the beautiful flowers? oh my god. It was really lovely.

• If a baby is 10 kg when he was 10 months old, do you think he is a giant baby? I really think so... haha... and i carried him. He is so cute... so chubby! hm... What do you think? haha...

Lastly, it is time for my studies... Enough of the playing and sightseeing... Maybe my housemates were right. The current me is a girl of no home. I was a tourist when I was back in Singapore and A tourist when I am back in Adelaide. In other words, I am a tourist! haha...

hey... Finally is my resting day. This week i am really very busy. I really hate cooking. Oh ya... I cook a Thai meal for my housemates yesterday.
The menu:
(1) Thai Honey Chicken Salad
(2) Tom Yam Seafood Soup
(3) Pineapple Rice (Credits: Ms Lu Siying)

My comments was: The food was well cooked. Haha... The hot favourite was the Thai Honey Chicken Salad. Followed by the Pineapple Rice. Actually I dont know if pineapple rice supposed to be sweet or wat. hm... anyway, I was thrilled. Hee hee...

After that, there was a international student party at University of Adelaide. Thus we go there after our dinner. But they brought me to a pub called Crazy House. My 1st reaction when i stepped into the pub was +__+". Oh my god... Shit them ! The pub was full of naked women. haiz... They wanted to let me have more experience. But I was really in shock. After like 5 minutes, I began to enjoy it. Haha... As a matter of fact, there are actually a lot of University students doing lap dance. It cost 20 bucks for a lap dance. The girl will take off the clothes and dance in front of the man. There were also pole dance. The most Eh.... performance was candle wax. The lady even bathe in front of the whole audience at the fountain. haha... Veron and I actually wanted to make a fool of the guys. But too bad! Jonan was angry. Haha... But i had fun. Maybe it was not in our culture. But it is also interesting to watch all this and experience what is different in other culture. If you use a more postive way of viewing all this, you will broaden your horizons.

I actually feel sorry for the girls who had to make this decision. There are many jobs around. I believe it is not easy to earn the money from this type of job. especially when you see your friends around. What will they think? Hm... Anyway, i need to go. I just finish doing all my housework. Now i need to study. Ciaoz...

Haiz... I really dont wish to wake up this morning. I know I wil definitly miss home. Today is my country's big day. It's a day where thousands of people sacrifice their lives to make this day a memorable one for us to celebrate. It's our independance day, our National Day!

Actually i always wanted to watch the fireworks with all my loved ones. The first time I watch the fireworks in front of me. I was so stunned by its beauty. The whole atmosphere is really very different. Maybe life is also like fireworks. When you are aboard alone, during festivals you will feel the loneliness n the emptiness in your soul. The illness of missing home will just emerge from no where. At this present moment, my whole mind is filled with thoughts. Of my mummy, my aunt, my ah gong and everyone who is dear to me.

Is there a place really called heaven? Can god bring me there? I really wish to be reunited with my loved ones. If only there's no death, unhappiness and violence in this world, maybe peace will really be with us.

Lastly, my wish for my dear country: Happy Birthday, Singapore! I hope being your people, we will love one another. Peace and happiness will always be with us.

From Your People in Australia:
Jolene

Finally~ I got the chance to see my whispering wall. It is actually a dam specially design that sound can travel at 140 km/sec. Hence you can listen to voices from one end to other. I can tell you. The sound is so clear and loud that it is like a the person is just right in front of you. The scenery is so beautiful... Ducklings swimming in the lake.


From Left: Jonan, Veron n Carter

Although this time i went to different wineries. The atomsphere around the winery is so peaceful. Oh ya... we keep losing our way, wasting so much time. Then Carter n Jonan kept complaining about hunger. Haiz... GUYS!


Jonan n me

I will be working tomorrow.. undergoing training. On top of that i have to do my reading at the library tomorrow. so poor thing! It's sunday leh.. Give me a break.

I am tired. Time seems never to be enough for me these days. I don't even have time to be online and chat with friends and all. I have started my work at the drink stall. My boss, Uncle Richard, is from Vietman. He has been very good to me. Time really passed very fast at the drink stall. Actually i quite enjoy the stress and pressure of working. It really feel so good to be able to work again. I understand it is harder to work in a ang mo country than in Singapore. There is a lot of racism, which I can understand. I mean it is just like how we hate people from China and all who are here to snatch our rice bowl. Oh ya ... by the way, i keep overcharging the customers. I really wonder if any of the customers realised my mistakes. But i guess i was too tired to really concentrate on everything.

Must be wondering why am I so tired? I slept at 4 am last night and I have to start work at 1 pm. On top of that, i need to get to the library and find my research books for my assignment(Play Studies). I also need to conduct an interview for the sporting mind and body, which is due 2 weeks from on. Worst of all is I have limited people to interview. The interview is about the mental toughness of sucessful people. I thought of my ex boss Devin but he is in Singapore. And i reckon he will not help me out. *Troubled*

Got to go sleep before I start my readings as I will be going to the winey tommorrow.Ciaoz...

Mei Nu 

I have just change to blogger. Hence, this will be my first chapter of my life. I do hope this will continue till the day i return to my place of origin (Heaven). Let me introduce my past 21 years of my life.

I am a simple girl who used to believe that everyone should go after their own dreams. A man without dreams is equal to a dead person. There are many things in life that we should cherish and treasure. Like how he reject my love, there's only 1 chance to do something. once you miss it, it will be too late to do anything about it. There are many people whom i cherish in my life.

First on the list is my brother. He is my first friend on this world. He was created on the 3rd June 1982. Just to mention a little about his deeds towards me, he spend all his saving for 4 months on my birthday. At times, I do feel that he deserve a better sister... haha...

Secondly, it has to be my 89 years old Ah gong. Actually I wanted to go back to Singapore to visit him. But i really have no time or all this is just excuses. It is because I spend the time on a guy whom cherish other things more than me.

My Mummy~ Actually i really love her... I guess for me, i am those who dont show care and concern in front of her. This sadden her heart. She must be thinking that why all her family memebers are in this way. She must be feeling lonely in the middle of the night, thinking about her unfilial daughter.

My Dad... He had always doted on me since i am young. Nowadays his health is failing him. I know he is suffering... suffering from his smoking habit. But i dont wish to see him like this. I really hope to lessen the load of my family. But at this very moment i chose to pursue what U feel is right.

Now I am here... In a beauitful city of Adelaide at Australia. I will be here for another 2 years. I am doing a degree in psychology. I hope that i can get into my honours year. I have 2 past relationship. I ended my second in the begining of this year. My past relationship are all with my best guy pals. Maybe the current me is really tired. Facing the same comments, the same group of people commenting about my relationship. It really tired me out... Actually the worst feeling is seeing how the relationship changes in our group. I used to be the most friendly and crazy girl among them. But now among 9 og us, i cant speak to 2 of them. Haiz.... Whenever we have chalet or gathering, everthing seem so strange. Even on my 21st birthday celebration, none of the guys wanted to take a picture with me. I just let nature take its course. Maybe it is my fault as well? Anyway, that is all i wish to say today. Maybe when i am free, i will start introduce my Good Pals for Life.


Me n Weilin