Saturday, September 03, 2005 ▪ 9/03/2005 08:15:00 PM
Ch 11: Time off for me!
I had been really stressed and exhausted from all my commitments lately. I am really trying to catch up with my work. Moreover, all my group assignments were being delayed. On top of thatmiss my family. I don't dare to call home last week. I really feel I cant face them. I am here to study but i didnt manage my life well... Haiz.. I just need some time off for myself. I should in this house there's no privacy as the walls are empty. Sounds can travel. Haha... Hence whatever I am facing I cant tell anyone. Bottling up everything is very unhealthy for me! Hence, I wanted to watch fireworks at WIndy point alone. But I was being scolded by all.
I know I should grow up and be responsible for my own actions. I should try to think for others' feelings and think over my actions. At the same time I know if i dont relieve myself from all the stress, I might kill myself one day. That is worse than being raped or murder, right? Haha... Just kidding. At times,I just cant understand why guys can do whatever they want? Why there are bad people around? Why not all countries are as safe as Singapore? Anyway, I just hopped on the train and go to Gleng. I know it is dangerous as well. But I did come back safely.
At times, I often thought that if there's no one who is concerned about you, it is very sad. But at the same time, too much concern bring on stress. Am i living because of everyone's opinions or should I do what i feel is right? That sounds immature, right? But what is maturity? How can I satify everyone's expectations of me and be myself? It is a hard question. haha...
