My Beloved Ah Gong n Kor

(Taken on last year CNY)
On 22nd Dec 2005, 2213hrs, my beloved ah Gong took his last breath and left this world at the age of 92 years old.

His last journey had never been easy. On the day of his discharge, he woke up early at 4 am to take his bath. However, the nurses found him unconcisous in the ward, with white foam in his mouth. From there, he was transfered to ICU. He had to depend on life support machine. On the next day, the doctors had took off all mediation as he was not recovering. He left the world the very moment my dad stepped in the hospitial. As it was being classified as unnatural death, his body was being transfered to SGH. Despite all pleas, they did a autopsy on him. After 5 days of wake, his body was creminated at Mandai. Today we went to collect his ashes. Seeing your loved one being reduced to ashes brings so much pain. Carefully putting into his "home", he was finally reunited with his parents and son in the heaven.

I guess all my good friends know how attached I was to him. He was the one who give me my self value. In a traditional family of mine, girls are not being valued. My own ah ma refused to take care of me when I was a baby. It was my Dearest Ah gong who took care of me. He was a fair man. As long as it is his grandchildren, he would play with them.

I used to remember he would cycle to my place in Jurong West from his house in Pandan Gardens. He would always reached my place at ard 7 am with breakfast in his hands. Who can be as healthy as him? Even the nurses at the hospitial told me that my beloved ah gong could walk faster than them.

I guess I had never thought that my trip back home was to send him off. I was glad that I was able to send him off on his last journey. But I really dont bear to let him go.

As my blog title suggests, we chose our own feeling by the thoughts we chose. Hence, I will collect all my feelings and pull myself up. I believe he would be waiting for me at the end of the road when I breathe my last breath.

Ah Gong, must take care! I will see you soon.

P/s: I am thankful for all my friends who show up at the wake. (Siying, Wayne, Serene, Hui Lian, Ty, Xunyin, Siew Ling, Amanda, James and Kenneth.)

Regards
Qiao Juan