Ch 55: .... ... ....
I got back my results. Feeling a bit useless. Just let me whine abit ba. I promise I will be fine after that.
Maybe I am just not a cut for studying. I mean no matter how hard I tried, I never seems to get what I hope. A apple. I am really very disappotinted, especially for Research Methods 1. I know people can just say," Oh, you have done your best. It's over. There's nothing else you can do anymore. Work harder for the next semster." But you never know how many nights I stay up to work for my assignments, to study for exams and how much I stay at home to study. Maybe I am not suitable for the course. I really feel like giving up. I had tried for long enough.
I just hate myself at times. Why I am not clever enough? Why my working memory cant contain more stuff? Really wandering if my brain is made of tofu instead of brain cells...
Haiz.... But no matter what, I will finish what I had started. At least I pass all. I never fail any subjects till now. Cheer up.
Regards
Jolene :(