This week is clinic week. Did I ever mention how much I hate clinic week? The reasons are as follows:

1) I need to rush here and there. Like for today, I simply feel that I am a poor soul, who is working so hard. I have my regular session (located at Serangoon Garden way) from 9am to 12noon. This means I need to leave home by 0730am. In my hurry, I didnt have the chance to grab a bite. After which, I have a Clinic from 1230pm to 2pm. Even though I took a cab back to the office, I reach there at 1235pm. The very moment I stepped into the office, my supervisor asked me to go for clinic. After the end of the clinic session with my first kid, I was about to walk out of the room to grab a bite or a drink. My teammate asked to remain in that room for the next clinic. It ended at 0345pm. By that time, I was really exhausted both mentally and physically (will explain in the next part). As I walk out of the room, my supervisor for my first kid wanted to brief me about the programs for the next month. Although she allows me to have a breather first, there's no food around the area (the restaurant which was beside my office was closed). Looking at this situation, I continued my discussion with my supervisor, which ended at 430pm. Finally, I hopped on a bus to have my first meal at Clementi. Time? It was 5pm.

2) Not enough preparation time. As I dont have enough preparation time for my clinic, I find myself in a the materials. It dont look good on me. Since I didnt get to prepare for the clinics on my own today, I dont even have the materials that I need. I am so disorganised. For yesterday's clinic, I also dont have enough time to discuss with my teammate on the things that we are going to show. Reason? That bitch asked me to help out at school since one of the teacher lost her voice. I left school half an hour before the clinic to discuss with my teammate. Upon the sight of me, she even has the cheek to ask who will be helping out since I was away. Come on, I need to prepare for my clinic. I am not being paid for my kind deed.

3) The programs implemented by my supervisor and my consultant contradicted each other. My stupid supervisor asked me to do matching with 10 discrimination. **** Pissed**** It is so hard to control the materials. On top of that, my kid is a hyperactive one, who will jumps or run away anytime.

Right now, I am still feel so low. I really hope that I will pick myself up. There's so much things on my agenda. I need to learn the stupid cartoon characters, think of new play activities for 6 years old, learn the new programs, prepare materials and plan my session. At times, I really feel that I need a breather. At the same time, I am worried about losing the rapport with the kids. It's a hard decision.

I just realised that I had written so much. Whining is not good for health. I better stop here.

oh my... I have no life. I have just realised that it's been ages since I last blogged about some stuff. I should say I dont really hate my job. But I am always counting down to my weekends. I am just really exhausted. Today is Saturday. Guess what am I doing? I am checking out Toy story characters. As a "teacher", you do need a lot of preparation. I guess to build rapport with kids take more time. It is really challenging to relive your childhood. For adults, the toys will be Gucci, LV, Mini Cooper and etc. For kids? Seriously, I dont know. Some of my kids are never interested in toys. They prefer attention (socials). After being at this job for like 3 to 4 months, I am quite certain that I might not enjoy kids that much.

Yesterday, my Ah boy was so funny. When he realised that I was preparing to do some water play with him, he ran to the door. However, he waited at the door for me to go back to clinic room. After then, no matter how I plan to cheat him to head back, he would just run back to the clinic room. I can feel his helplessness. At the same time, I am glad that I do have great rapport with him. No matter what happen, he dont dare to leave without me. Yeah~

I will be having my 4th case (which is located at Serangoon Gardens near Chomp Chomp). I dont really like him. He is the one who loves Toy story or anything related to Disney (Ron's best pal, I guess). Although his programs are more advanced than my other cases, I am not really too keen on his case. Maybe I need some motivation.

It's February. I have not even begin on my reading. Looking at Ah bu's blog adds onto my guiltiness. I better get my eyes moving. Can I count my textbooks too? It will be a busy week next week since it's clinic week. I will brave through it!